I make me think you

I am sorry
I make me think you.
It’s just easier not to.

But I feel guilty
Sometimes so I make
me think you.

May you be at peace
Happy Muerte.

crash it.

They feared her.

Smoke
out of her mouth and nostrils
they knew they had to run.

They didn’t listen.

To her complaints about
politics, suicides, art, and
violations.

She was a dragon.

Smoke
out of her mouth and nostrils
they knew they had to run.

Run from her words
Run from her unlikely
to be her.

Sneering with her snake eyes.
Eyes of resentment, disappointment,
and pain. Pain that turned into shame and caused her heart to
slowly burn and carbonized leaving
a hole so deep and so dark.

Where all her lovers were now dead or lost forever.

This is a story of a women
who turned herself into a dragon.

For fear of loving she hid in her cave with

her secrets
her pains
her desires.

She burned herself to death.

The end.

I forget

Sometimes

how to spell.

Is it because I fell?

I forget

silly wishes and ask

for more kisses.

Sometimes

I forget.

The Women In My Family. We

We party and play with our men
and our children at the same time. We

Wake up early, 5am "pa prender el nixtamal"
Grind it real fine with the grinder, and then a
softer mill with the metate at the same time. We

Work the graveyard shift, go home and take care of
the cleaning, the cooking, the children at the same time. We

Note and vote, choose, cruise, and become loose at the same time. We.

He brings out the Chicano in me......

Mondays with Harry
Sometimes coffee
sometimes wine.
Don't see him often,
but when I do he's always able to help me make
sense of my nonsense.

He brings the Chicano out in me.
and I feel proud,
to be me.

I am on this Chicano film kick.
Watched Zootsuit last night.
Most of it, but passed out towards the end.

Woke up to Xochilt pawing my face.
I screamed.
She scared me.
Sometimes I forget I have a cat.

Through Harry I met Robert,
who did the original set for Zootsuit.(Paulina's ex...hehee)
Talent.
Robert said he'd help me with my set. Once I finish my play.

Crazy to think that the Sleepy Lagoon trial was held at
what is now BFA (Carmen Zapata Theater).

Manny told me, I couldn't believe it. I had to Google it.
"I knew it!" I told Manny.

I could feel the energy everywhere;
from the dressing room to the stage.
I knew that place was special.
So much history.

I fell in love there once,
broke my heart and broke my tooth.
Harry knows, I told him.
Screamed and cried it in one of his videos after breakfast.
Blueberry pancakes and two shots of Patron.

That space should be run by some Chicanos
not some Cuban lesbians.
(nothing against the Cubans or the lesbians)
I just want that space.

Next on my list of Chicano flicks is Walkout,
want to see who played Harry and how.
Don't remember Harry being too excited about it.
Said no one asked to use his name.